I don't think it took guts,but thanks,such is life,as for my sister,meet her as her brother once about 9 years ago,she was raised by an uncle and evil aunt,they had a son not long after getting her and raised them as brother and sister and i was on the outside looking in with no hope,she has a good life and a couple of groms ,,which makes me an uncle but i have been told that they do not know of me and never will,i sort of understand as i would not want a person like me in they're life either
,the uncle who raised her ended up gassing himself(coward) after i first tried to make contact ,the thinking was that i would come along a stuff things up for them all.
as for the relos i grew up with as you can see dickheads do not think, that is ,they continued to drink and drive after what happened and did not care even knowing what had happened(can't pick ya family glad most of them are long gong to the other side)
This will come across wrong but in the end mum dying was a good thing,,that is if we had stayed with the old man i would be dead or in prison and who knows what the dick would have done to my sister he was an evil lowlife and yep he had been in crashes after getting pissed ,also would have probaly got wiped out in Tracey (sure the old man dying would have been better)but hey such is life so i became the ashole that i am,theyre is others out there who have had worse to happen ,
as for the love or needing to be loved bit never happened my guess is it never will,(could be the reason i have not pulled a root in 20 years)
so have a couple a beers and get in ya car whats the worst that can happen,(and if you get cuaght or have a crash have the balls to front the survivours and see how it feels ,ya can not **** my life up anymore
oh forgot dudedog loves me but only cause i feed him and he has yet to have better offer
the only photo of mum and me